# 44.
Tuesday, November 3, 2009 Tuesday, November 03, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMUM!!! :D
Dear grandmum,
I wish I could just pick up the phone, give you a call and wish you a happy birthday now. But unfortunately, I can't. How much I want to, how much I swear to myself, I can't. Life is short, indeed. I really miss you. This is the first time in my 14 years of living, I can't celebrate or even wish you a happy birthday. Was it kinder to let you go? I always think to myself. If only I could stop any obstacle. I would give up my life to bring you back. Things are just not the same when you are not around. It's different. I always said to myself that you will be my guardian angel. Are you still here? I wish I could see or even talk to you in person. Now what's there left to remember are fond memories that I will never, ever in my life forget. I thought you will be still around to see me graduate, get married and watch my children grow. It's like a nightmare that I have to wake up to everyday. Sometimes, when I go back home, I always pray to God that I'll see you but you're not there. Is this a dream? Is this a cruel joke? Please tell me it is. You were the peace maker of the whole family. You reunite us and made us happy and you never ever put us down. All I know is, you thought me not to look down on anyone or talk bad about people. I remember the times where you would cut my toe nails and paint them for me, stroke my hair and my barbie dolls' hair and tell me to go up to my room to sleep. I wish I could turn back time, that's for sure. I look around and think that I'm going to see you but now I know I must move on. All of us have to. It's part of life right? At the time, I couldn't see beyond your death. It was an earthquake and to me, it was the end of my life. You'll look at mortality very differently once you’ve lost someone close to you. You think you’re going to live to be 100 when, in fact, it could be tomorrow. That’s life and death. I hope you're happy where-ever you are. I won't let death tear us apart. I love you and I miss you a lot, grandmum. Have a very happy birthday.
With ♥,
Jessie :)
Dear grandmum,
I wish I could just pick up the phone, give you a call and wish you a happy birthday now. But unfortunately, I can't. How much I want to, how much I swear to myself, I can't. Life is short, indeed. I really miss you. This is the first time in my 14 years of living, I can't celebrate or even wish you a happy birthday. Was it kinder to let you go? I always think to myself. If only I could stop any obstacle. I would give up my life to bring you back. Things are just not the same when you are not around. It's different. I always said to myself that you will be my guardian angel. Are you still here? I wish I could see or even talk to you in person. Now what's there left to remember are fond memories that I will never, ever in my life forget. I thought you will be still around to see me graduate, get married and watch my children grow. It's like a nightmare that I have to wake up to everyday. Sometimes, when I go back home, I always pray to God that I'll see you but you're not there. Is this a dream? Is this a cruel joke? Please tell me it is. You were the peace maker of the whole family. You reunite us and made us happy and you never ever put us down. All I know is, you thought me not to look down on anyone or talk bad about people. I remember the times where you would cut my toe nails and paint them for me, stroke my hair and my barbie dolls' hair and tell me to go up to my room to sleep. I wish I could turn back time, that's for sure. I look around and think that I'm going to see you but now I know I must move on. All of us have to. It's part of life right? At the time, I couldn't see beyond your death. It was an earthquake and to me, it was the end of my life. You'll look at mortality very differently once you’ve lost someone close to you. You think you’re going to live to be 100 when, in fact, it could be tomorrow. That’s life and death. I hope you're happy where-ever you are. I won't let death tear us apart. I love you and I miss you a lot, grandmum. Have a very happy birthday.
With ♥,
Jessie :)
# 43.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
School's coming to an end soon. Just a few more weeks then it's the winter break. A year past so soon. It's sad that time passes so damn fast all the time. I just wished I could turn back time. I don't want PMR :'(
My results are out, some of it. I did well in the subjects except Mathematics. Holy, when am I gonna be good in Math? I wish I could memorize all the formulas just by doing the equation once. It's sad, really.
School's been going on pretty great. My class is planning a trip either to Malacca or KL. Pretty awesome, eh? Hmmm. I wish we will be going to KL :)
I decided to change the way I blog to save time..
With ♥,
Jessie :)
My results are out, some of it. I did well in the subjects except Mathematics. Holy, when am I gonna be good in Math? I wish I could memorize all the formulas just by doing the equation once. It's sad, really.
School's been going on pretty great. My class is planning a trip either to Malacca or KL. Pretty awesome, eh? Hmmm. I wish we will be going to KL :)
I decided to change the way I blog to save time..
With ♥,
Jessie :)